It's been a while. This blogging can be exhausting. I wonder how the legit bloggers do it daily. Ugh. Too much effort. But then hey, it's their passion. All right, so as I mentioned in my previous post, I will be talking about what went down with my catch-up date with old friends, the boyfriend questions, and others. I also finished earlier this month Mitch Albom's The Timekeeper so I'll be talking a bit about that and getting back into the social circles. LOL
My elementary years have been eventful for a number of reasons but of course those reasons also have to do with the people I was with. Unlike in high school and college where I got so latched unto the same people for four years, elementary allowed me to meet different people who I considered to be my friends. It would be 10 years since we officially got together, excluding those times we met in parties or in public spaces around high school and college. In any case, I just had so much good memories with them that I even keep dreaming literally about elementary life: the school, the people, and the experiences. I missed my childhood so it seemed right for me, after going into social hibernation for two months to just get back out there and rekindle old ties. When you're psychologically and emotionally bothered, you also somehow try to fight being all defeatist by finding new things to do especially interesting ones for you. I can't speak for all but that's what happened with me. I thought about getting a sideline like going on a business so I recalled what I needed and who could help. My elementary friends just fit the picture and since I missed them, why not. But when I did meet them, they definitely changed. OF COURSE, DAYAN. I was a bit sad by that. I wasn't vocal about it but I didn't want to push myself to things which I didn't have much interest in anymore. And their kind of fun just didn't entice me the way it probably would have for college me. The lesson I guess I learned is that, in life, some of the friends you had way back just grew apart from you and developed their own interests. It's up to you if you want to tag along with them again, but you have that choice. Sure, they might have an opinion against or for you when you turn down their invitations but you just have to be cool and learn how to say no or sugarcoat the no. haha.
Moving on the boyfriend questions. When I slowly got back to meeting my friends, I ran the risk of meeting questions like "why are you still single?" or "do you have a boyfriend?" Those slightly add to the hormonal reactions in the brain again which is ugh....normal yes, but I'd say so primal. My exact response to the first question thrown by a friend was that I just don't want to bother anyone with my personal concerns. I conditioned myself you see to develop my best self and once I feel that I'm confident enough to subtly show that to the world then that's the time I would also search for the one. Seems logical right? Practical and healthy. Anyway, I was so bored that I decided that it would be okay to meet someone. Well, it's generally okay for me but again, I don't feel so marketable yet. The point now is that I'm meeting someone online through a friend who bridged us. Ew. The thought of this arrangement recalls telebabad, penpal, Robert and Elizabeth Browning. This part of the blog is all over the place. I'll write another one specifically dedicated to this. So what are the lessons I learned from people's constant nagging about having a boyfriend? Just keep it real and let God or the universe run His or its course.
Lastly, I read The Timekeeper by Mitch Albom and find it to be interesting-boring-interesting-and then motivating. SPOILER ALERT. The crux really is about living your life as best as you could and with the people around you because you will never know when life would end. Other than that, it's also important to not focus so much on the negative things about you and your situation. Always look at the positive things you have.
My mind is throbbing so I'll have to stop for tonight. I do think I'm missing something so I'll wrap this up properly soon.
