yesterday, my classmate got into a rumble which i did not witness. the aftermath is like a energy ball waiting to explode. or it may have imploded already. in any case, i'm a bystander from another room while all this happens. i have the choice of meddling into everything that is happening after it or remain quietly in the room - ignorant or passive-aggressive. when i look into the ones who are in the position to meddle because of their post, i feel like reality hits me hard. my privileged ivory tower is shaken. it is odd, i think, because last year i was so bent on dividing my time with working for people and studying because i wanted to keep myself grounded, other than the fact that i had time to spare especially in the first semester. this year, i decided that i could do the same thing. i can help others by serving the student organization that has kept the little spark of competitiveness in me burning and study. sadly, i am not as dedicated as i thought i would be. i have been slacking off. i am losing my spark.
when i'm at home, i cannot concentrate. one solution i could muster is to go study outside which i sometimes do. now that the fares have increased, i am discouraged. i am no longer as financially independent as i was last year. i admire those who do not lose track of their goals. i believe i was one of those before entering law school. and i have to get back on track.
in the alchemist, an anecdote was told by one of the characters which went as though it was between a boy and a king whom the former purposely sought because of his father. the king told him to scoop some water on a spoon and balance that spoon on his mouth while going around the king's house. the boy did and he was very careful not to spill a drop of water. finally, he successfully came back to where the king was with the spoon still filled with the water. the king asked him of what he thought about his house. the boy explained that he no longer paid any attention to his surroundings because he was so focused on the task with the spoon. the king told him to do the task again, but this time, he should also observe his house. when they boy accomplished the task, the king wisely said that like balancing a spoonful of water, we must set goals. and when we do traverse our lives, we must pay attention to the things around us but never lose sight of our goals.
shet. i love that anecdote. i believe i got those details right. either way, i love that anecdote more than how the universe conspires to help us achieve what we want. or equally.
