Life is alive

My Manila trip was fun. I noticed that I mentioned quite a few times how I never would have imagined, with my mindset from January to February, going back to Manila in April. I'm blessed for having accomplished such a feat with my own earnings too from the freelance writing job and from finally claiming the courage to get back. It was such a delight seeing my Bedan friends again and those I encountered routinely in my brief 5-months stay there in Mendiola. Of course, when I got to sit down again with some of my classmates for dinner, there were unavoidable moments where I felt out-of-place because of their class-related conversation. It's sad. Maybe it will forever be sad how my path would never align to theirs but I'm also thinking that surely, each of our paths are different. It's pretty baffling to me still how I should react to those who briefly know me as that freshman Bedan girl. I couldn't exactly explain and take up their time at a party so I had to leave it at that. I'm still a freshman, Bedan girl for some.

Law school loves

It was a pretty eventful trip. I posted 30 images in Facebook that probably summed my thoughts and experiences there. Let's see. I went there for five days and four nights. In that span, I processed but did not complete my transfer eligibility, rekindled ties with some of my classmates, walked probably for the last time inside the SBC law library and campus, ate a hearty buffet lunch with my closest Bedan friends in MOA, learned to commute to Ermita from Padre Faura and back, sent all my 5-months-worth of dorm things on cargo, commuted to Marikina and back, attended an SJ party, savored beer every other night, met with Lucy in Cubao, partially publicly transported to Pasay, braved MRT with a slight hangover, set foot for the first time in SM Makati (only to discover later on that this mall also had Kumori! WTF), and rendezvoused with a new friend! It was so fun. 

Law pamilee

I'm going back for you, Kumori!

These are the kinds of things that I live for. I love to travel. I love my law school friends. I love meeting new friends because it's exciting. This was just such a refreshing trip although not in terms of air quality. By the way, I'm also glad to have finally met this boy which my friend introduced. He's such a gentleman. I feel bad for having partied the night before and for bluntly revealing it to him. He must think I'm such a douche, but I feel happier that I did what I did. I just wanted to unwind from the whirlwind of dropping out from San Beda, legitimately failing two subjects, the unpleasant moments back at home, and generally facing the question of where to go next or what to do about this gaping situation. Escapism. Chos. In any case, it's pretty cool that he's far, grounded, maybe a bit naive too(?) and busy with his own career. I just hope that he gets to be a good friend, more than anything right now. 

Anyway, that tryst aside, I forgot to add that on my third night during the trip, I got invited to apply for a job as a legislative assistant of a city councilor. Very cool and timely although I wouldn't admit it at first. So when I went to the interview, things were pretty chill. Strangely, her committees and the job itself somehow aligned to what I have been doing or perhaps I'm inclined to do. I observed how they did their job and it's pretty okay, save for the things that I personally would suggest to be changed or improved. On the down side, I've been slacking off on my freelance writing. Work at home is just not motivating for me. But this pays higher than that legis job so I have to get my shit together and manage doing both jobs. Did I mention I'll be taking phiLSAT this Easter Sunday too? Well I am and I haven't even prepared for it mentally. Oh dear I hope my transferring to San Agustin would be smooth with my taken subjects credited. PLEEEEEASE, UNIVERSE. 

This post is everywhere. I also got invited by my elementary friends who I dismissed last month as having differed from me in terms of interests to go on an overnight beach trip in Northern Iloilo! How tempting is that? With this heat and my pallor, the beach sounds like heaven. Hmmm what else happened? Oh I got my student driver's permit! VERY COOL. Now all I have to do is find out how I'll learn to drive. Life is definitely picking up and it's not just because it decided to, I think I also made decisions and acted upon them to experience these events and opportunities. :)

Also, I read Ayn Rand's Anthem this month. It was shorter than the previous ones I read and it basically piqued my interest at dystopian literature. I remember asking my sis or friend if she knew other dystopian novels and I can't quite recall what she replied, but hey! I came across Anthem! It's quite a humanist story. SPOILER ALERT. It's set in a future society where people are absolutely collectivists or they value the welfare of all instead of the individual. Like 1984, the protagonist discover's that there was something missing or something forgotten. He gets an epiphany together with his love interest, they escape and live off as individuals who love themselves and each other. I think the lesson there isn't so much of a single piece of wisdom, but more of rethinking how you view society and the concept of "self". SPOILER DONE. It's definitely a story to ponder on. I can't wait to finish my other Book Sale hoard. 

Till me next post!