She did not make it again

 Yes, you read that rightly. I did not make it again. I did not pass the 2025 bar exams. What a huge disappointment. I was completely devastated for three days. After much reflection and conversation with law school buddies and law-related friends, I have decided to give it a go again. This time, it will take longer because I am required to enroll at a refresher program for having failed the exam thrice. Surprisingly, this failure is less painful than the second time that I did not pass. Perhaps my therapy session the night before the result came out proved effective in helping me realize that I had a great year last year! I grew a lot! I learned to say no to my parents with conviction and I stood by my decision of moving out from the house! 

It will be a longer journey but I feel much more accountable this time because I freely chose and paid for my previous review classes and I was more conscious pf how I answered. Of course, I am disappointed but I feel like I am more self-aware of where I need to improve. Speaking of which, I am deciding between an online and a face-to-face modes of refresher program. I shall investigate further in the coming days as to which mode I would select this May (date when most refresher programs would accept enrollees). 

A few days ago I also reached out to my lawyer friend who helped me with my previous take. I told him the good news that I did well with my labor subject during the bar since he was a lawyer who practiced labor law mostly. I also told him that I did not do well in my other subjects. He suggested that I create notes online while waiting for the start of my refresher classes and that any mode or program will do. In relation to this, I do believe that retention and quality reading time is important and so I agreed to begin a blog about my review. Maybe I would incorporate it here as a separate topic. I will see. 

In general, I feel much better. 

Before I forget, I had an interesting realization earlier while watching the film, Materialists. I realized that I do not associate with people who have displayed a two-faced character in my past encounters with them. I am not certain what that could mean but perhaps I have a preference for spending time with people who celebrate and respect me (and others!)